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10:04 PM
do you really ask yourself that
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yes
10:06 PM
If you want to chat about it, I don't mind
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And even saying to Silia you don't want to be friends with her because she's friends with me? Wow
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And even saying to Silia you don't want to be friends with her because she's friends with me? Wow
True chaos
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And even saying to Silia you don't want to be friends with her because she's friends with me? Wow
that is not what i said
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that is not what i said
Well, it looks like you meant it in that way
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this is what i said
10:07 PM
i meant it as i said it
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Hold up
10:09 PM
10:10 PM
Want to explain that?
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explain what
10:10 PM
the other part is just me being careful
10:10 PM
i didnt say that makes it super worse
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but what you said above
10:10 PM
i never said
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well, it looks like that
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then it looked wrongly
10:11 PM
i meant it
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exactly
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"I don't think we can get along"
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"I don't think we can get along"
yeah
10:11 PM
thats why i clarified
10:11 PM
since i noticed that
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because she is friends with me?
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since i noticed that
Oh right
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that might be misinterpreted
10:12 PM
thats how followup messages usually work
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oh I get you miscommunication
10:12 PM
same thing with me
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i meant it exactly as i said, i was (and still am ig) on bad terms with you and i didnt want that potentially hurting your friendship with her even if i dont like you
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Vero, I actually try to like you, but sometimes you gave me the feeling that you don't like me before all of this drama happened
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i meant it exactly as i said, i was (and still am ig) on bad terms with you and i didnt want that potentially hurting your friendship with her even if i dont like you
you're not at all
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Vero, I actually try to like you, but sometimes you gave me the feeling that you don't like me before all of this drama happened
how come
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how come
I mean before this drama happened, it felt like you were cutting me off and shit like that
10:14 PM
i dont understand
10:15 PM
wlel then let me tell you it straight
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i liked you very much before
10:15 PM
now not anymore so
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like it felt like you only liked me because of mutual friends
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and those are
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now not anymore so
I definitely understand that
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i think basically all of the mutuals i have with you i also have a mutual with someone else
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and those are
Example like pulsar and more (edited)
10:16 PM
Marius
10:16 PM
Ric
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Majar
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i mean marius and ric are just
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Spier
10:16 PM
owners
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majar just likes me
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so i like him
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spier weve known each other long before i knew you
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pulsar same thing
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spier weve known each other long before i knew you
that's nice
10:17 PM
Online friendships never worked out for me.. And I see why
10:17 PM
you wanna know what really makes me sad though
10:17 PM
about all of this
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Either it's a long-term friendship and then that person randomly stops talking to me, so..
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you wanna know what really makes me sad though
I know I know It made me upset too Because I never think before I do shit
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no let me explain
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Sure, go ahead.
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when you told me about how you regret saying to me what you did last time, and you said you learned from your mistakes, i was ready to give you another chance because, i still liked you in a way, i had hope we could make up and kiss but just one day after you did your thing again and hurt one of my besties (pulsar) similar to how you did with me. Im just sad and dissapointed that after i was ready to give you another chance you just ruin my hope like that
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when you told me about how you regret saying to me what you did last time, and you said you learned from your mistakes, i was ready to give you another chance because, i still liked you in a way, i had hope we could make up and kiss but just one day after you did your thing again and hurt one of my besties (pulsar) similar to how you did with me. Im just sad and dissapointed that after i was ready to give you another chance you just ruin my hope like that
with the pulsar thing it was completely different
10:20 PM
He started this shit
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He was calling me slurs and shit like that
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Even my own friend witnessed it
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i know the slurs were mutual
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Then I got upset and started confronting him
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thats not what makes me upset
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i know the slurs were mutual
also saying I'm waste of air and shit like that
10:21 PM
Worthless
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And shit like that
10:21 PM
so I eventually blocked him
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i know you both said bad stuff
10:21 PM
as i said thats not my problem
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Worthless
Do you know how much that hurts my feelings?
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as i said thats not my problem
Yes right
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Do you know how much that hurts my feelings?
i know well enough how that hurts because my mom told me that every day for 14 years
10:22 PM
but anyway
10:22 PM
it was more than
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you made it global
10:22 PM
fuck that is a bad way
10:22 PM
to say it
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i know well enough how that hurts because my mom told me that every day for 14 years
im actually so sorry i went through that shit also but different.
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fuck that is a bad way
its alright
10:22 PM
I understand you
10:22 PM
no need to feel weirded out
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i meant like you said stuff like "ppl are talking behind ur back"
10:22 PM
and stuff
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Its true tho..
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insults sure idc i insult ppl all the time
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Its true tho..
well if you want me to be honest
10:23 PM
i know people are talking about you behind your back at times aswell
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but
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i dont tell anyone that
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usually
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i know people are talking about you behind your back at times aswell
yes, i know
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like as an insult
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Like pulsar valetina and more
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because it can make some types of people genunly insecure
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I thought Pulsar was a good friend..I mean, yeah, he is one, but he made me upset.
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because it can make some types of people genunly insecure
Just had to say the truth
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and you made him upset
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and you made him upset
and so did he to me
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thats what you just said
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right..
10:25 PM
ultimately
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yes?
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you started it
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uh huh..
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not taljking abt
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you started it
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the beef with pulsar
10:25 PM
but the whole situation
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you know why it started
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the reason you got timed out too
10:25 PM
even if its made to be funny with sounds and stuff
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Look, no, that's not how it happened.
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and even if its not real
10:25 PM
who knows
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its just not funny
10:25 PM
regardless of what people say
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Can I tell you my side of the story?
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That's not what happened
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sure
be ready for a whole script ahh
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Okay, so it started when I called him weird as a joke because he sent me some unspeakable shit, and I didn't actually mean it. Then he got mad and told me to stfu, so I said to him, "It was a joke," and type of shii like that. Then I asked him if we could match another time because I wasn't in the mood so he said "sure, do whatever you want." And after awhile I went on dms to text my irl bsf to go on vc with me, so I told her what happened and the drama and the noodle girl was my bsf and yes it was kinda messed up when I sended that but have you seen the video itself? no, than pulsar was saying "ban mills and noodles", " bann mills. " and that actually hurts? like wtf.. I mean yes understandable, but ur own friend going against you? that actually shattered my heart!? I'm not trying to sound dramatic.. But it's true? After that I texted him on WhatsApp and I said to him "why would you say that. " type of shii and that's how the argument started, calling me slurs and stuff like that. At when I got timed out or banned wtv it is I actually got upset for a long time. Like, I don't want to get In further details but I don't want anyone to hate me. Do you know the feeling of someone hating you? its just.. Idk
10:33 PM
It truly breaks my heart
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i have indeed seen the video
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it was kinda messed up with the Qundale dingle audio but oh well😭 (edited)
10:35 PM
Rip that guy
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look i would say
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yes?
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like all of that sure i wouldnt be mad
10:35 PM
if you wouldnt be joking about suicide
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ive lost friends and one time almost my own life to it
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it just not funny to me anymore
10:35 PM
regardless of if
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if you wouldnt be joking about suicide
I wasn't trying to joke about suicide
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someone puts funny sounds under it
10:36 PM
or if its staged
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I wasn't trying to joke about suicide
you were
10:36 PM
sorry but
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you 100% were
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someone who doesnt joke about it
10:36 PM
would not possess or send others such a video
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I got that video from s15 tho💔
10:37 PM
I don't know if that changes anything
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it doesnt in our situation but it does change my view on her
10:37 PM
but still
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as you can tell
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it is not funny to me
10:37 PM
for the reasons i mentioned
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it utterly digusts me
10:37 PM
that people think something like that is funny
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it utterly digusts me
im sorry
10:38 PM
I'm actually am
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I know sorry doesn't change anything
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im sorry
you see normally that would be enough
10:38 PM
"sorry ill change now"
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i give people second chances
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because i think they deserve them
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but you had your second chance
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But may your friends rest in peace.
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but you had your second chance
Right no
10:38 PM
I only had 1 chance
10:38 PM
With the argument
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With the serum thing
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and that was all
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you joked about my suicide attempt and/or talked me down, and then made fun of that guy hanging himself
10:39 PM
that is two times
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Third time is the charm? no..
10:39 PM
alright
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Thats not the problem
10:40 PM
i could give you a third chance
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but the problem is
10:40 PM
i dont have any trust to believe you really changed anymore
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i dont have any trust to believe you really changed anymore
thats alright
10:41 PM
It's not like I'm important to you or anything
10:41 PM
so I don't see the point in that anymore
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what do you mean I wish?
10:41 PM
i wish
10:41 PM
that you werent important to me (edited)
10:41 PM
wtf?
10:42 PM
thats actually rude, Vero
10:42 PM
thank you very much, I hope you are happy
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thats actually rude, Vero
what wrong did i say now?
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"I wish that you weren't important to me"
10:42 PM
thats actually so rude?
10:42 PM
that shatters my heart, Vero
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well my bad if that came of as that rude but, i genuinly cried a lot because i was split because one half hates the disgusting things youve done but the other values you a lot
10:43 PM
thats what i meant
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if i never met you
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that wouldnt have happend
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but if i never met you
10:44 PM
i also wouldnt have had the fun times
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i also wouldnt have had the fun times
true
10:44 PM
But Vero
10:44 PM
I actually care about you, and it seem like I don't
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But I'm just idk
10:44 PM
I don't know what the right word for that is.
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I also care a hell lot about you, but my mind doesnt let me like you anymore
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I also care a hell lot about you, but my mind doesnt let me like you anymore
Vero, look, I can change that Im begging you just give me a third chance Please Vero Even if you don't like me anymore, im begging you
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I also care a hell lot about you, but my mind doesnt let me like you anymore
you ever noticed how i didnt wish you anything bad (except for maybe once or twice when i was still in emtional distress)
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Vero, look, I can change that Im begging you just give me a third chance Please Vero Even if you don't like me anymore, im begging you
i really want to but
10:46 PM
i dont know what i'll do if you fuck up again
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i really want to but
Come on Vero..
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i dont expect you to fuck up
10:46 PM
but i know its the possibility know
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i dont know what i'll do if you fuck up again
im begging you
10:46 PM
okay let's make a deal
10:46 PM
If I fuck up again
10:49 PM
You can ban me from the TA asylum server for life
10:49 PM
Even though that server is a part of me, it's wtv
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let me think for a bit
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okay, okay Take your time
10:52 PM
Just know I don't usually do this, but you are actually important to me, yk.
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As you see, I didn't start anything.
11:18 PM
I don't know why valentina is now defending pulsar but oh well
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that is why i said
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pulsar started it
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he brought it back up uncessarily
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so this time he is the worse one
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but also you are technically still muted
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so i also gotta count that in
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yes, true
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Vero come on
11:28 PM
Why am I muted for 1 day??
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1 day
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be happy
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I know it's for evasion
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that its not
11:28 PM
5d again
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I know but pulsar started it?!
11:29 PM
i didnt
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tiemout
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you for anything for that
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only pulsar got punished for that
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you got punished for evading
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oh right
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as simple as that
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Can it be 2 hours at least? I actually want to talk to these people.
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sorry, i know how important these ppl r to you but this time i wont change it
11:40 PM
1 day is staying
11:41 PM
you can still talk to them in dms however much you want
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sorry, i know how important these ppl r to you but this time i wont change it
Understandable
12:08 AM
dwww
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its not personal ok
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wdym?
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im just doing what was decided
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I know Im not upset or anything lmfao
12:10 AM
you're just doing your job or so whatever
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